Saturday, March 31, 2007


i missed the street which i was supposed to turn right to. i am guilty of thinking and driving. deep deep thinking yet still safe driving. it's amazing how i still end up alive and it's ironic that i get traffic tickets when i'm absolutely concentrated on the road.

i hit the gas pedal hard as i realized certain things to be real.

undiscovered turmoil and fever and a secondary fever of confusion, and then the astonishing relief from something wrong but probably right for me. i know this because the panic mode quickly turned into a calm one.

something became off-balance. i'm trying to determine which side it is. i'm going to either load or unload something. and that's the most difficult part --- deciding. i have to make the right choice because one wrong move would mean a permanent loss of stability.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007


certain things happen to people that make them alter their almost permanent decisions. in this case, YOU happend to me. and it was a good thing -- a very very good thing. my life certainly began when we got together.

no matter how traumatized or negative i was, you made me a believer again, and a firm one at that. i said it once, twice, and i will never get tired of saying it: you are the guy -- the only guy -- who was man enough to prove to me that not all men are the same.

i have absolutely never felt more loved and valued. thank you for showing me what real love is about.

happy anniversary, Love. :)