some people have a habit of keeping their loved ones in the dark in the hope of protecting them. but when the truth comes out, these people who were kept in the dark wouldn't feel protected, rather, they would feel betrayed. confused. lost. stupid. and they wouldn't know which emotion should exist first. and at some point, these emotions can be felt all at the same time.
i should know, it happened to me. in fact, it's still happening to me.
other than the piercing little detail that i was the last one to know, i also found out about it on new year's day. new year's day! wow. what a way to start the year, huh? God was testing my strength on the very first day of the year.
i keep thinking that finding out the big ugly secret earns me the right to stop respecting this certain person. but that's not applicable here. my case is oddly different. i am forced to show respect to someone who continues to betray us.
this. is. hell.