i get caught between asking what's probable and asking what possibilities remain. it is having the courage and losing it in the next breath. it is knowing i am strong but realizing that it's just what i keep telling myself.
there are certain obstacles i need to face but i'm really tempted to just look away. i'm pretending that the latter is a better option. i know it's a cheat, but for now, it works for me. after all, if they say that timing is everything, then i'll deal with it...when the timing is right.
it could take forever though. :/