Perhaps it also has something to do with my desire to maintain that wall. Being jaded made me into this type of person. Sometimes I couldn't tell anymore if breaking the wall is worth it, or even necessary.
Dealing with people is probably not something I'd be an expert in. I keep learning, growing, and sometimes regretting.
And to you, I really have no choice but to say goodbye. Didn't expect to do this, but then again, I didn't expect to get to know you in the first place.