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i know i'm losing it when everybody's words don't make sense to me anymore. it's when people start giving their litany pieces of advice and everything just sounds gibberish. i know they have every good intention and they may think that their advice can help, but in moments like this, all i want to do is ask them to shut up. (but i don't do it. maybe one day i will)

most importantly, i know i'm off-track when, in the shortest moment possible, i had second thoughts about the one thing i can always trust.

my instincts.

abstractions and loose statements. the seemingly petty and harmless aspects CAN and WILL one day surprise you with a strong presence. so strong that it can throw you off balance, even for just a split second. an all important split second.

serious embarrassment is what i felt during that one second. how could i NOT trust my instincts? but then again, who validates one's instincts?

i have never heard anyone say "don't trust your instincts." they always say it in an affirmative and encouraging way: trust. your. instincts.

just a few days ago, i learned -- in an immodest way -- the value of trusting my own intuition. and for me to doubt it is almost unforgivable.

my instincts and my faith in Him definitely cleared the air. it also made me laugh at the realization that people's unfounded allegations don't deserve my attention.

they are puzzles not worth solving.