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I am grateful. Truly, I am.

But something tags at me every now and then. The answers are righ there, but I still keep on probing until it becomes obscure, yet again.

I know what I want and I resist it. I can't quite determine if it's due to fear or plain stubbornness.

It's not my habit to ask for signs probably because I don't exactly believe in them. But even without asking, I have to admit that signs just pop out of nowhere. Sometimes the signs are literally just right smack in front me -- brighter than neon lights. I still manage to ignore them.

So I'm back to square one. I continue to search. I search further. I end up more confused.

This is a maze with no exit.