_most likely...most likely not_


the illuminating perception may have allowed me to see that this is too huge to be embraced and too beautiful to bear.

but there is something very different about it. and i am trying to figure out what it is. i believe i am close to knowing.

in fact, i think i already know. but the world often seems to be withholding something from me.

until i am certain, i will happily dwell on these forehead wrinkling moments and continue to build up the courage to face up to it....in case it turns out to be a sour truth.