_hence_


it happens that you go through a period of great unhappiness and doubt. you start questioning everything. you not only question why this and that is happening. you doubt life in a larger sense -- you question your existence.

and so they say that each person has a purpose in this world. but frankly, i don't think i'll be a big loss in this planet if i die. again, i am questioning my existence. which is perfectly normal if i may say. i don't know anyone who's never done that at one point or another in his life.

i know that my faltering attitude seems unnecessary. i know perfectly well that i am blessed with a good life. but i need to go through this phase. with all due respect, i cannot follow your advice: "wag mong masyadong isipin". no, i simply can't do that. THIS MATTERS. once i get over this, i have already rediscovered myself. and perhaps, i will have answers to my questions..or at least, clues.

deep down i am still the same girl who embraces life with enormous passion and laughs hard. but i also need to cry hard.