I miss writing. I miss the old blogging world. I miss my old friends. I miss being a kid and not worrying about bills or responsibilities. I miss the simple life. I miss the analog life. I’m not even sure why I’m here. I just needed a space to breathe. I’m tired but I’m still hopeful...and faithful.

Eternally Grateful

Thank you, Lord, for always, always making me rise above my fears and frustrations. Thank you for the gift of family, friendship, music and laughter which all make me feel better!

I fully understand the importance of obedience. :) Thank you for saving me -- again.

I am forever grateful.

learning, yet again

I always tell myself that I know what I'm getting into. And I always convince myself that I can manage the expected pain.

I'm so damn wrong.

Here I am. Hurt. Again.

And yes, I saw it coming. But I forgot that it'll be more painful than I anticipated. I should stop fooling myself that I can handle it. Maybe I still can, but the process is absolute torture.

But I won't stop believing that I'm strong, because I will survive this. I know it. I just know it.

Like a Fog

Experience has taught me that all acquaintances are passing. I keep forgetting to make the most of every contact. And when I realize it, it's too late.

Perhaps it also has something to do with my desire to maintain that wall. Being jaded made me into this type of person. Sometimes I couldn't tell anymore if breaking the wall is worth it, or even necessary.

Dealing with people is probably not something I'd be an expert in. I keep learning, growing, and sometimes regretting.

And to you, I really have no choice but to say goodbye. Didn't expect to do this, but then again, I didn't expect to get to know you in the first place.

Oh, dear.

Life is much easier when you don't care.

But not necessarily better. Remember that.

Stream

Seems like I've really lost the love for blogging. *sigh*

Writing my thoughts down has been replaced by...well, just more thinking. I do this while walking, driving, or sipping my extra hot coffee. My friend says we are the brooding kind of generation -- always analyzing. In my case, I usually over-analyze.

So many things have happened since I returned to Manila in 2010. Perhaps I'll blog about them one day.

I left the OFW disposition back in SG. I've not only closed doors, but also locked them -- for good. Of course I opened new ones too. There are always so many doors for us, if only we knew which one to open. And even if we don't, we still open whichever we think is calling upon us. After all, the greatest adventures in our lives are in the risks we take.

And that's what I've been trying to do almost every day of my life. :)

The Memories We Make

Almost 10 years ago, on the 4th floor of SMPC, we became seatmates. I didn't like you at first because I thought you were noisy. Haha! As it turned out, we were noisier together. :P Kawawa sina Benneth at iba nateng katabi haha. One of my favorite stories from your Sykes days was your job interview.

Interviewer: Do you know what HTML is?

Sam: No.

Interviewer: Do you know anything about cookies?

Sam: No.

Interviewer: Do you know what HTTP stands for?

Sam: No, but I'm traineable!

Aaaaand you got hired! Haha! One of the best success stories in the BPO industry! :D

From SMPC days, we've surely come a long, and I mean, a looong way. No matter where our feet take us, we'll always have great memories to hold on to. And we'll make more. And yes, there will be no judgments whatsoever. :) There is nothing you can do that will make me love you less, bes. :)

Yours is the only statement I could take when it comes to that very personal aspect in my life. I know you only want what's best for me. Others just seem too prying and insincere. Perhaps having you is one of the reasons why I'm brave to face the future "alone". I am blessed with a wonderful friendship which I know that will last me a lifetime. I know that somehow, someone will always be there for me -- hindi nga lang romantically. Haha! Thank you for always making me part of your family. :)

Happy double digit birthday, my bes! Haha! Matatagalan pa ulet bago ko masabi 'to. Another ten years. :D Love you!

See you on Sunday! :) I can't wait!

And because we're reminiscing, here are some photos from our little adventures here and abroad. Look how nene we are in some photos! Haha! Most of my happiest moments were really spent with you, bes. :) I'm still looking for "older" photos, but so far, here's what I found: